It's been two years since I joined Newgrounds.

I am proud of the way I have came through, I started making my own songs with the application "Audacity" which is by the way, meant for recording and not meant to be a DAW.

Somehow I managed to make a very low tier songs with it and started with ~Invasion~.

Invasion is repetitive and is really boring, I made it a little better somewhen but deleted the first version forever (something I regret) Its still bad, but for a person that never learned music theory, and never seen a DAW it was an achievement.

Since then I tried to make something else with Audacity, I managed to make a really good sample and added some plucks on it and it was great "masterpiece" back then. but then a friend of mine that actually knows music came over to me heard the song and said to me that we need to add drums on it. The drums made more depth to the song, but its still extremely boring, I uploaded it anyway, like most songs.

Everything since then is history, I made bad songs and uploaded them, some I regret, some are surprisingly good, and one day, my Audacity at my desktop computer died. probably because I made ~Plucks and Drums~.

I tried to fix Plucks and Drums I moved the files to my laptop, but the Audacity there broke too.

I was looking for solutions, so I thought its time to use a real DAW.

I asked people what DAW should I use, I was answered with FL Studios, and made ~Nameless~

I didn't like using FL, even tho it is much better then Audacity, I knew nothing of the features and barely made that song, anyways, I did make something way better then usual. So I tried again.

~Laser Beam~ was made, but I still knew nothing tho, and when I tried to make another song, I just didn't want to, FL was too confusing and during that time I was learning 3D modules, and I thought I might quit to it, and become only an artist.

One day I was checking the Audacity at my laptop and realized it was fixed somehow.

I was happy I can make music, but I didn't knew what, I was missing inspiration, I was tired of it.

I wanted to hear all of the songs of my inspiration artist back then, Rukkus he's called and when I reached somewhere near the bottom of the list, I saw that one song Eiffel 65 - Blue Remix from 2009. By now it's removed, maybe it's Nightcore or something, but I heard this and become inspired.

I made my own remix.

I was proud of it, even tho I changed nearly nothing, (it got banned too) I was inspired again.

Only now i get how much bad it is.

I kept on making trash songs, and uploading them, and getting trash comments of course, and laughing on how silly they are. and one day, I made a masterpiece, the best Audacity song I ever made, Once Again!

The timing is awful, the sample is decent, but the drop, magnificent! (for Audacity).

Somehow I managed to edit drums into those soft noises, making this song a milestone for me.

I made a few more bad songs, and reached the realization I would progress nowhere until I get a real DAW.

I tried again a DAW some friend suggested long time ago, LMMS it's called, I practiced with it, uploaded some of what I made, and then I reached almost full knowledge of it, meanwhile I started modeling again, started to make 3D covers to my songs, and I am filled with satisfaction. I managed to evolve from terrible into decent, my songs are far better than two years ago, and here I am writing this, looking back seeing the progress, realizing I reached far more than I thought.

And here you are, reading this, my story, thank you for your time.

Thank you for reading those thousands of words, full of meaning and care.

Even if nobody ever reads this, because its too long or just because people don't care, or just because it's faded in this site, it's good I wrote it, for myself, for my journey.